I am growing up fast!

I am walking with the Barbie jeep, I am flipping my self so I can get off the bed feet first, i am eating ANY food you give to me or i find. I really like tearing up tangerines from the outside to get to the juicy middle. It makes me happy and makes Mama giggle!  I love to smile!  I smile with my whole body!  I love my Mama, I will follow her or find her anywhere!  If I am crawling to her and see her i speed up!  I just cannot get enough of my Mama.   If i see her, I am happy to sit and play by myself!  I know she is there if I need her but I love playing alone!  I love sleeping alone too in the toddler bed, as long as I can reach out and feel Mama there. She said I am sleeping better and better each night!  I am a sweet baby, at least that is what I am told often!

When I wake in the  morning I crawl on Mama smiling, then I see brother and  smile even bigger!  Once Mama gets up to the bathroom, I follow her. Usually I have to poop at the same time as her. True story, she calls it the gray poop time. She is funny!  She leaves toys in every room for me to play in. They always end up back in a box, it is like magic!

Today I have to go get a shot but then I get to go see lights!  Brother is super excited, so I guess I should be too!

I should be walking soon!  I am trying really really hard!

Much love!
~CB

I am a stinker.. a cute one at that!

Everyone keeps telling me i am a cute stinker. I grin and do this grin as i grunt a giggle. I smile with my whole body!  My eyes light up and I tighten up almost in a ball as i smile!  I am loving food!  I see someone with food and I am right beside them doing my grin, grunt, giggle move. It works. Every. Single. Time!  People love to feed me! Even brother gives up his food for me!  Mama also lowered the bed so I wouldn't fall out. She says she has surgery soon.  This worries her.  She loves to snuggle with me. She is a good Mama, she doesn't even get mad when i wake her up every single morning at 5:30. She said she would be happy when I realized I could go back to sleep until at least 7. Not sure why I want to do that when i can see her smile at me smiling at her :D  She loves me!  I love brother too, so I get very very excited when he wakes up!  He is grouchy in the morning. Mama said, he is like her, and I am like Daddy. Daddy doesn't need much sleep but mama and brother sure do!

Love 

CB

My big brother

I love my big brother, he holds my hand when i sleep. He hugs me when I cry, he makes me cry by hitting or kicking me in the face but that is neither here nor there. he picks me up and carries me to mama or daddy. He is the best!  He is crazy and screams a whole bunch, which makes me scream or he squeals with me when i stand and shake the headboard while squealing. He loves me taking a bath with him!  He kisses me and hugs me and brings me toys. I Love love love him!  This morning he held my hand while i slept and while he slowly woke up. Mama said it warms her heart!

Love
~CB

6 month check up.. one month late

I had my check up yesterday and 4 SHOTSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSs.  I cried at that.

I am 20 lbs 8 oz, 27.25 inches tall and my head is 17.5

Dr Cody said I was hitting all of my milestones!  I do have a lip tie but he thinks it may resolve itself!

I am a very healthy boy!  I, again, did not like the shots.. at least they did 2 at a time so it was quick. Brother also got one :(  He only cried a little bit.

Today I am running a fever and a little sore.  I am going to sleep and get lots of snuggles!

Love
~CB

Crawling and pulling up

I am a crawling baby!  This is AWESOME! I am all over the place now. No stopping me!  Watch out world, you are MINE!  Brother has a toy, I try to take it! I love being near him and now that i can crawl, it is GAME ON!  I also can pull up!  I try to take steps and mama tells me to slow down!  But she thinks i will be walking sooner than later. This makes her sigh. I also found the pots and pans cabinet at Emmys house. OOOOOHHH that is fun! I can make lots and lots of noise!

I am such a happy sweet baby!  Mama, tells me that all the time!  I love taking showers with her!  I play as she showers then she showers me!  She left me on the bed this morning to play with brother and had to come get me because I crawled across and was coming to her.  She said, "oh no no no you are not going to fall off this bed"

I am a very loved baby!

Catch ya later, I got things to do!

Love
~CB

6 months old

I am 6 months old. I am 19 lbs. I am sitting up all on my own, I  am pulling myself up to standing by myself and I have begun to crawl.. slowly but am totally moving around!  I like to talk a lot!  Mama messed up my dr schedule and I will skip this month and go next month at the same time as brother for my 6 month check up!  I have started eating foods. Hummus, goat cheese, crackers, mashed potatoes are some of my fave things!  I love love love my big brother!  I like playing with him.  I like it when he is sweet to me. I do not like it when he hits me, but am getting used to it. I only cry when it really really hurts. I love to bounce! i am so much happier now that I can move around and sit up!  Mama lets me sit in the shower while she showers and I love that! I am a happy happy baby, but who wouldn't be happy being so loved!  I leave Mama to stay with my Babs and Emmy and I do so love them, especially Babs!  He is the best uncle ever!  My cousins love me so much too!  I really can't complain!

Love
~CB

Sick

I'm sick.  This is a crazy feeling. All I want is mama. She said she wants sleep. She's sick too but still snuggling me!  For me to be 5 months and just getting sick now I'm either doing something right or something wrong!

Thankfully I got better quickly! 

Love 

~CB

5 months old

I am one happy boy!  I only cry when I want to be picked up, I'm hungry or when I'm about to poop!  I love to bounce. I can sit up.  I can roll around. I'm scooting along. I love to snuggle!  I stayed standing up by holding on to my toy. I love to baby babble loudly!  Mama says I need to slow down!  She's been sick but still does so much with me!  My mama is a beautiful warrior princess in my eyes! 

Love 

~CB

I slept good

I've been a sport lately. I am sitting up almost all by myself. I am rolling over I can stand though i sway but still standing!  And I slept 8 hours straight last night which made mama very happy. She said she didn't even mind playing with me at 3:30am I mean I was smiling at her so she should be happy! She makes me smile when I see her face! So does uncle Robbie. I do so love him too!   I'm a happy happy baby!  Who wouldn't be when you are as loved as I am! 

A smile from me to you!

love 

~CB

4 months old

I'm 4 months old. I love to smile and giggle. I hate going to sleep but love to sleep on mama and uncle Robbie 

I pull my self up. I love to jump jump jump.  

4 month appt

I weigh 17.20 lbs. I am 25.5 inches tall and my head was in the 55th percentile.  Dr Cody said I'm super healthy and hitting all my milestones!  Those two shots made me mad!  They hurt!  I told mama all about it too!

After my appt we stopped and saw dr Bryant who delivered me and mrs Stacey. They are all so sweet to me!  I love them! 

Night time Play

I love to play in the middle of the night and my sweet mama lets me. She sits up with me while I giggle and smiles right back at me. She grabs toys so I can play and then when I am tired, I snuggle up tight to her, drink some milk and I go  back to sleep nestled tightly.  She knows exactly what I want with the wiggle i make. She smells nice and is so warm and comfy!  She says she loves waking up to my smiles!  I do smile nicely!  I smile with my entire body!  It makes the smile seem bigger!

That is all I have today folks! I am 3 months what do you expect?

Love
~CB

3 months old

I'm 3 months old. I weigh 18 lbs and am about 25 inches long!  I love love love my mama!  I'm easy gong unless I'm gassy or want mama!   I sleep in one large stretch at night the. Wake a couple more times to eat. Thankfully mama keeps the bottles right beside her. She's quick!  I miss nursing but am just happy to get milk!  

I have been playing in my activity bouncer thing and love it!  I can make things turn and jump up and down!  Brother gets jealous but he also makes it more fun by moving it around.  When I get out he gets in. He's way too big!  

I do so love my brother. He makes me giggle. He's also mean to me and hits or scratches me. At least he is doing it less frequently now! He had to be in my 3 month pic too!  Photo bomber!

I love my Sophia you, this octopus and this orange ball thing. I love baths with mama too! I am a happy baby!  Who wouldn't be happy with the family I have! 

Love 

~CB

First 4th of July

My first 4th we went to Wakulla sprigs  and saw GG, grandma, a bunch of church people who loved me and my aunt Carrie/uncle Lucas/ Reese/grayton

We had fun. Well I slept mostly but I was told we had fun. Then we went to Emmys and did fireworks.  Those were cool! I liked the colors. One of them even shrieked like JB does. We laughed at that and I kicked my legs in excitement! Yay for my first 4th!

Love 

~CB

First week of "daycare"

This week as the first week at "daycare" and away from mama, all day long!  JB and I went to Emmys every  day. JB loves to play!  He and my cousins as well as the dogs are very loud!  It's hard to sleep there but I get wrapped up by Babs or Emmy to sleep on them!  My cousins also hold me!  I definitely never want for anything.  Mama said JB used to have to go to real daycare and that is supposed to suck, so I am glad I'm at Emmys. 

Today is Saturday.  Daddy took JB to some July 4th party so I have slept on mama all day long! It's been over 3 hours. This has made me very happy! Mama says it makes her happy too!

She apparently missed me as much as I missed her! 

Love~CB

Back to work

Mama went back to work today. She left me with Emmy. I was very happy!  She was a little sad but told me of all the fun I would have!  She was right!  So much fun!  Uncle Robbie even wore me in the baby carrier so I could sleep!  Nothing wrong with that!

So much love!  I cannot wait to grow up and be able to play with my cousins like JB. They love me!

Peace out!

~CB

Nursing

I'm sorry we didn't have many nights of this. But I promise I enjoyed every one of them!

Love 

~Mama

Last of mamas freshly pumped milk

At 8:59pm on 4/27/16, I drank the last drop of the last freshly pumped milk mama pumped before she went into her chemo treatment.  Daddy started the bottle but I left the last ounce for mama to share with me.  She laid me against her breast and I drank until there was nothing left and slowly popped off it like I would do to her, making sure I tried to stretch it back some. The bottle nipple doesn't stretch like mama does. She then put in this pacifier which I sucked on for a second before spitting it out. My eues stayed closed as I rooted around on mama shoulder trying to get comfy. I do so love that she lets me sleep on top of her. She said soon I'll get big and have to sleep beside her but for now she snuggles me tight on her chest!  I've got a good mama!  She loves me so and I love her! 

Mama said she loved hearing me coo back and forth with daddy. She said that is what she and JB did and she's glad daddy is getting the chance to do it with me,  even thigh it makes her sad too.  She wants that time with me. She said she's a tad bit jealous and in awe all at once. Silly mama! 

I did take this amazing formula mama bought me from the uk last night and some today. It tastes almost like mamas milk.  I drink it like a champ. Mama said she's very proud of me! 

Well that's my  update! 

Love

CB

Last night of nursing

CB

Tonight was our last night of nursing. Our journey has been very short but you have done very well! You latched on immediately after birth and nursed so much you quickly gained back your birth weight plus more by our 2 week Drs visit!  You get very angry at the boob when it lets down fast or when you are tired.  I think you will adjust quickly to a bottle since you do not really nurse to sleep but rather nurse cry then go to sleep. I'm so sorry our journey is cut short. I'm thankful for the time we have had!  

Love 

Mama 

I'm sorry CB

Oh CB, I did not picture your first year of life to be with a mom who is fighting cancer and fighting to stay alive for you and your brother! 

I'm so sorry you will not have the same mom your brother did. The energetic mom up for any adventure and trip! The mom who took him for daily walks, to the zoo, beach, festivals, visiting friends and more.

I'm sorry there will be times I can't pick you up 

I'm sorry we will have to emergency wean you from nursing and you will have to take a bottle 

I'm sorry i have to feed your formula 

I'm sorry you'll have nights away from me before you turn one

I'm sorry you won't have my hair to pull and eventually not have boobs to comfort you.

Oh I love you so much and am so sorry I'm sick. I wish so much this wasn't happening to us, to me.  

But what you wil get is more time with daddy and Emmy. You will always have my smiles and Kisses. You and your brother are my greatest accomplishments!  I wil fight to watch you grow up! I will fight to watch your personality develop! And I really hope you don't remember mama being sick and only remember my love!

All my love

~mama

2 month check up

I had my two month check up on Thursday

My measurements were:

15 head

23.5 length 

14.5 weight

Dr. Cody said I was perfect he also did not like hearing that Mama has breast cancer but said it's OK if I lose a little weight moving over to a bottle and formula

Mama will take pics on Tuesday of me. 

I don't like mama having cancer. She cries sometimes and tells me how much she loves me and that she's not leaving me. I believe her!  I'm sad I'm not going to have her boobie much longer but i would rather have her around!

I love mama

Love 

~CB

Dear CB

Oh baby boy.    I love you.  I never imagined my heart would be so big.  You are such a good boy. You are so calm and flexible. You sleep when you can, you nurse but only from the good boob unless super hungry.  You came into this world with a bang.  We could have lost you or me or both of us. We made it through that we can make it through anything right? 

I love your smiles and coos. I really hope I'm around to watch you grow up.  I can't wait to see how your little personality develops.  Will you be like JB? Will you be more quiet?  I can't wait to find out. 

If our nursing relationship gets cut off early. I am sorry. It's never what I wanted. Our relationship will begin differently but I love you just as much!  In life circumstances are beyond our control.  But know that I love you!  You and your brother are my world!  Never doubt my love!  It's what drives me each day. 

I'm going to enjoy all the snuggles I can take from you while I can!

I love you 

Love ~mama

Baby Deux has arrived

Contractions starting getting regular around 3:20 on 4/7/16. By 4:15 I was trying to get ahold of my husband. By 6 the dr was like come in now and my sister drive JB and I to the hospital.  We pulled into ER about 6:40 and they hurriedly contacted labor and delivery to come get me.  By the time I made it up there I was 10 centimeters dilated and the cervix was almost completely opened.  I finally was able to push right before 7:30. One contraction, multiple pushes ans people pushing on me like I was a punching bag since little one was so large he got stuck coming out. I gave birth to a beautiful big baby boy at 7:31 pm,  10lbs 5.3 oz, 20.7 inches long. CB came into this world with a bang also pooing before making it out.  We have a fractured left clavicle buy that will heal on its own and is due to coming out sideways. Thankfully we both did well and mama did it completely naturally with the help of a sweet toddler, my sister and husband who barely made it there on time. Best Sandy drove from Jax in time to hold the baby!

Big brother was able to see the birth and hold his little brother! 

My heart is full!

Welcome to the world little one! 

Love 

Mama

One month old

I am one month old 

I weigh 13 lbs am wearing size 2 diapers and 3 month clothes 

I love my mama and boobie milk 

I coo and hold up my head and upper body. 

I love my brother but not when he hits and pinches me which is often though mama does try to stop him. She snuggles me tight when that happens. She's sweet 

My eyes are blue and bright 

I poop a lot. Mama calls me me poops a lot for that reason 

I sleep really well and smile a lot 

I am one loved boy! 

Love 

CB

Good advice

https://www.fatherly.com/unsolicited-advice-im-sharing-with-3-sons-1742312286.html

40 weeks

Past our due date. Mama and baby are great! Mama is annoyed with "are you still preggo" and other silly comments by well meaning people. Today's appt we were 4 centimeters so Doctor swept membranes. Finally having contractions just nothing major. 

Baby should be here sooner than later!

Love Mama

33 weeks

I am currently getting bigger by the moment. I am hungry all of the time, but no room for food. I have been having contractions for the past month off and on all day but nothing that is actual labor, thankfully. 

I am still nursing JB, and he is getting only colostrum at this point, but doesn't seem to mind.

I have been good about not eating too many sweets even though I have been craving them. Sweet Hubs bought me some cookies and cream Blue Bell since it FINALLY is back on the shelves!

I have eaten lots of fruit, nutella, mmm nutella mug cake, salads, garlic, eggs and avocado. Those seem to be the biggest cravings.   I am exhausted, and my back hurts by the end of the day. I would kill for an in house masseuse/cook/maid, sadly I am not rich to have one. 

I am really nervous about the birth. 1. no NICU at the hospital, 2. how JB will react without Mama for a couple of days/nights and how he will react about sharing me. Lots of emotions running through me. We still do not have names picked out. Some days I think it would have been easier to know the sex so that we could just focus on one, but I am excited we are letting it be a surprise. I am nervous at taking care of a newborn with a rambunctious toddler. I am nervous that people will try to take over and take JB away from me when I really want us to learn to be a family together from the beginning. I am good at asking for help when i need it, but others do not seem to understand that. JB is still so little and cannot talk well enough to tell me what goes on when I am away from him or to tell whoever is caring for him that he wants his Mama and for them to listen. I know him. He loves me and wants to be with me a lot. I am lucky my sister tells me every time he asks for me and if he does it a lot brings him to me to see me during the day. She gets it, others do not. I am nervous about getting through the labor with no complications. I never want to leave my sweet boy without a Mama. I cry a lot over that. I love him so much it hurts some days. I never imagined loving something as much as I love him. I love this little person in my tummy as well. still nervous... 

I am tired of being told how to parent and what I should do. I am learning as I go but I am listening to my instincts, and those have never steered me wrong before. It is hard to deal with well meaning stubborn opinionated relatives who mean well but do not get the word "no" or the fact I am the mother and they already raised their kids. I am lucky my husband listens to me and gets where i am coming from even if he doesn't always agree, he does agree that I am an amazing mom who loves her kids and always have their best interest in my mind. 

I am still very big on no one will be at the hospital for the labor except my sister, my best friend and my husband. Everyone else needs to stay away. I need to focus on the baby and me and I need quiet. I need no distractions and quite frankly it is really annoying to be in pain with people staring at you.   JB will be with my sister while I am gone and she already has a plan of when to bring him to me (first thing every morning) so I can see my little love bug. As being away from him at night makes me cry. I am going to miss him so much. He is such a good snuggler and helps push me out of the bed. I haven't even packed for the hospital. Though I have been keeping the house clean. That has been my biggest obsession focus  lately. 

Overall I am ready to meet this little person who is wiggling around, kicking me, causing me heartburn and is already in my heart. I know that all will go as it should and that i have no control over things that happen. I am excited to see how JB will love on his sibling, as he is such a sweet boy. I just hope they both will always know that I love them so much!  Very soon we will no longer be a family of 3 but a family of 4. #partyof4please  

 

3rd trimester

I have been a real slacker on posting, on all my blogs.   Pregnancy is going well. No real cravings except for sweets and bread. I cannot get enough of fruit and really pastries, pies whatever I can get my hands on, but I do prefer fruit.

I saw the dr yesterday for my 28 week appt. She said all was going well. My belly is growing right on queue, the heartbeat is in the 150's so nice and strong. She was  pleased with everything. I really do love this dr. she is so nice and real. I will have to bake her a nutella pie!

Baby Deux is sitting low, so by the end of the day all i want to do is lay down, which is problematic with a toddler running around. I am exhausted. I need sleep and am not getting it. Again toddler....

But I am feeling good, still able to work out and am feeling this little peanut move a bunch!  it definitely likes to dance in my belly!

Happy 3rd trimester!


Love Mama